I already move on lah dude ! :D

dear bestie

okay, if you read this my dear please understand what I mean.

first, I want to ask you am I your best friend or just friend or what ? kau ambik aku bila kau perlu aku. bila kau dah dapat balik kawan kau atau mcm kawan kau yg lain ada kat sekeliling kau campak aku mana weh ? aku bukan nak merayu untuk kau treat aku mcm apa. tapi aku ada hati jugak weh. ada perasaan jugak. mcm kau lah. aku penat ah weh. penat sangat-sangat kalau kau buat aku mcm ni. seriously aku memang terasa bila kau buat mcm tu. okay, aku tahu aku mcm 'tak penting' pun dalam hidup kau. tapi tu lah kau kene ingat aku ada hati. aku ada perasaan. faham ? aku tak marah. tapi aku terasa sangat. serious aku tak marah. sebab aku tahu, aku tak ada hak. so mcm buat apa en nak marah. memang selama ni kau buat aku diam. sekarang ni pun aku mampu lagi diam. tapi aku dah tulis kat blog kan ? ni last lah kalau kau buat lagi, aku terpaksa ckp. but it depends ah aku larat lagi ke tak. tapi rasanya mcm tak. this is not the first time kau buat aku mcm ni. dan bukan aku sorang je yg parasan tau ? kalau dah org lain pun perasan jugak mcm mana babe ? huh ? kalau orang lain pun tanya "ila, kau tak penat ke kena mcm ni? " nak cakap apa lagi weh ? FUCK do ! aku teringin nak nangis. tapi apa aku dapat pun kalau aku nangis kan ? tak apa lah. aku try tahan. sebab ? sebab aku sayang kau. kau best friend aku. tapi aku tak tahu lah aku ni sapa dekat kau. *enough is enough! lagi sekali aku bgtau aku tak marah tapi aku terasa :)

withlove,

ILASOURUS

survey cilok dari annes, hihi :D

If I looked on the bed next to you, what would I find?
almari

Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?
closed

Are your underwear and socks folded in your drawer or just thrown in?
folded in my drawer :)

Sleep on your back or stomach?
Back

What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
nothing

Something that happened today that made you angry?
yessssss =.='

What were you doing before this survey?
tumblr-ing

What will you do after the survey?
futsal training

Marriage or living together?
marriage

What shirt are you wearing now?
hihihi :D

Do you sing?
yes

Do you de-label your beer bottles?
minum pulak aku ?

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
depends

Is there something you regret and wish you could take back?
yeah :(

First thing you do when you wake up?
thinking

Ever had surgery?
yes

Last argument you got into with?
hamira hamid

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
no, haha

What's one good thing about your best friend?
i don't hve any best friend

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
2-3 hours

Current song on myspace?
stuck in the moment by JB

When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
yessss, haha

If you were given the chance to take care of a monkey for a weekend, would you?
huh ? a monkey ? a big NO !

What is the current advertisement on the side of the screen?
-

What are you looking forward to in the next few months?
pass my PMR with a flying colours

It's midnight. Who are you texting?
yousourus ♥

It's Wednesday afternoon, where are you usually?
school

Honestly, if you could have ANYONE in the world, who would it be?
maaaa :)

Your Christmas list consists of?
I don't celebrate christmas

You're going to New York for school shopping, where do you go first?
ntah

You need a new pair of jeans, what store do you go to first?

levi's

How do you feel about your hair?
ishhhh !

What movie is in your DVD player?
friends

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
paris, awwww :)

How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
I'm thankful being a girl

What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
fly :D

How many TRUE best friends do you have?
-

What would you change about your life right now?
nothing

the one with the whole MOVE ON thing

me : kenapa do dia buat mcm ni ? apa dia nak ?

mimie : haishh, move on lah ila. ea ?

me : weh kau nak tahu ....

mimie : tak nak. dah move on.

me : weh tadi aku nampak ...

mimie : aku tak nak dengar blablabla. c'mon ila move on okay ? :)

mimie : Ila, move on lah. kau boleh :)

me : kau cakap memang senang. kalau kau yg kene tengok mcm mana ?

mimie : kau boleh ila. aku takes time 6 months untuk lupakan dia.

me : hmm, tunggu lah lagi 5 bulan.

me : mie semalam en blablabla

mimie : kau nak dia ?

me : tak nak

mimie : so ?

me : tapi aku sayang dia. hehe :D

mimie :*muka ketat. cakap kat dia yg kau dah move on.

me : aku memang dah move on *padahal padahal je tu

haishhh, I'm sick of this move on thing. rimas tahu rimas ? okay now I'm trying to forget about him. I'm trying to not thinking about him all day long. and it worked but then before 12 am "the star lean down to kiss you and i lie awake and miss you" ( my massage alert ) tengok sikit sapa ? wahhh, it's him ! macam mana nak lupakan dia completely ? takkan lah aku tak nak reply text dia padahal tengah rindu gila babi ni. lagi lah kalau dia call. takkan lah tak nak reply. takkan lah tak nak angkat. sekali dua boleh lah kalau dah banyak2 kali mana boleh tahan. okay the thing is i love him, okay ? don't you get it ? have you ever fall in love before ? kalau pernah mesti tahu perasaan aku macam mana. tak apa lah. aku redha je lah. kalau boleh, boleh lah. kalau tak boleh, kalau sakit ke apa kau tanggung lah sendiri ea ila ? okay. problem solved *padahal lagi =.='

with love,

ILASOURUS :)

I'm fuckin bored ! -.-'

hi i'm fifteen :)

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to ILASOURUS

happy birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :D

hi people :) thanks for all the wishes and present. i really appreciate it. and i love you guys very muchie. and sure i have fun masa dekat alibaba tu. even korang tinggalkan aku lepas tu. hahahaha :D and and happy birthday to intan nur farisa 10.10.10, puteri alia natasya 11.10.10, nur syahmi syafiqah 13.10.10.

with love,

ILA

dear miss

hey gurl.ko jgn nak tnjuk BAGUS ko tu bleh x? Ko jgn nak jd PERASAAN n HOT la..sblm nak kutok org, CERMIN DIRI ko tu dulu.bru boleh kutok org lain.ko ni memang KURANG KASIH SAYANG eh? INGAT!! CERMIN DIRI ko tu dulu.lg satu.ko tu budak sekolah lg.jgn nak

ohh heyyy miss :) first, aku tak tunjuk pun yg aku bagus. second aku tak perasan pun yg aku hot. then, kalau ORANG LAIN dah kutuk aku takkan aku nak diam je. mcm kau lah. next, aku dah lebih dari cukup untuk mendapat kasih sayang dan aku tiap2 hari tgk cermin. and aku sedar je yg aku ni budak sekolah lagi. dan lagi satu yg paling penting sekali, aku tak faham apa masalah kau tiba-tiba nak kacau hidup aku. puas ?