I LOVE YOU, ENOUGH.

Hello hi :)

The reasons why I love you

♥ You make me feel like I never felt before

♥ I'm smiling while I'm thinking about you

♥ You are the reason why I'm crying all night

♥ You make me fall in love with you every time we meet

♥ You stole my heart and refuse to return it back

♥ My heart stop beating for a second when I saw you

xoxo,

AQILAH ANUAR

ONE SMALL THING YOU SHOULD KNOW

She wanted to be your

EVERYTHING,

but you ended up making her feel like

NOTHING :(

sincerely,

AQILAH ANUAR

THINGS THAT HURT ME

♥ Being unsure of how someone feels about you.
♥ Feeling like they are mad at you.
♥ Being misunderstood by people you care about.
♥ Being judged by people you care about.
♥ Feeling like you lost something that was never yours.
♥ Feeling like you’re doing too much.
♥ Thinking you aren’t doing enough.
♥ Not knowing if you should say something.
♥ Worried about what they’ll think if you do say it.
♥ Feeling like you care more than they do

with love,

AQILAH ANUAR

OH REALLY ?!

REALLY ? I don't think so

HUH ? Do you remember when the last time you called me ? Then I cried ? I begged for you to stay ? You know why ? Because you said you gonna leave me. You said you hate me.

Oh REALLY ? So then why I have to cry when every time you left ? HUH ?!

HAHA, REALLY ?! Ermm, this one I'm not so sure. FOREVER huh ?! nahh, we'll see.

with love,

AQILAH ANUAR

I WANT ALL THESE

I want kisses

I want kisses on my cheeks

I want to wrap my legs around you

I want to barely kiss you

I want to lie in bed all day, just you and me, just sheets and us

I want to fall in love, just once, just you, forever and ever

BOLD THE TRUTH

I am a morning person.

I am a perfectionist.

I am an only child.

I am Catholic.

I am currently in my PJ’s.

I am currently pregnant.

I am left handed.

I am married.

I am addicted to MySpace.

I’m shy around the opposite sex.

I Hate people who bite nails.

I currently regret something I have done.

When I get mad I curse.

I don’t like anyone.

I enjoy rock music.

I enjoy RNB and pop.

I enjoy jazz music.

I have a car.

I have a cell phone.

I have a pet.

I have at least one brother or sister.

I have been to another country.

I have been told that I’m smart.

I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humour.

I have had a broken bone.

I have caller ID on my phone.

I have changed a lot over the past year.

I have had surgery.

I have killed another person.

I have had my hair cut within the last week.

I have had the cops called on me.

I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t.

I have kissed someone of the same gender.

I have mood swings.

I have rejected someone before.

I have seen the Lord of the Rings triology.

I have watched Sex and the City.

I like Shakespeare.

I love to cook.

I love Michael Jackson.

I love sleeping.

I love to shop.

I miss someone right now.

I own over 100 CD’s.

I own over 100 DVD’s.

I own and use a library card.

I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.

I read books for pleasure in my spare time.

I sleep a lot during the day.

I strongly dislike math.

I think Britney Spears is pretty.

I will try ALMOST anything once.

I work at a job that I enjoy.

I would classify myself as ghetto.

I can name all seven dwarfs from Snow White.

I am currently wearing socks.

I am tired.

I am currently waiting for someone.

I lost contact with someone.

I hate Miley Cyrus.

I think Party In The USA is catchy.

I’d date Harry Potter.

I can name all the past presidents of the United States.

I know who was president before George Bush.

I love pickles.

I need the internet to live.

I prefer vanilla over chocolate.

I watched Star Trek.

I watched all six movies of Star Wars.

I own an Xbox.

I think music is life.

I prefer bands than singers.

ps: I take this from Maya's :D

MOST GIRLS WOULD LOVE TO HEAR THIS FROM THE GUY SHE LIKES

*Boy and Girl are walking around the mall*
Girl: Hey, do you think that girl is pretty? I do! *Points out pretty girl*
Boy: She’s alright.
Girl: Oh… Okay, how about that one? Shes really pretty! *Points out another girl*
Boy: Haha, that girl’s not pretty or ugly. She’s average.
Girl: Oh… you have really high standards.
Boy: I guess you can say that.
Girl: Okay, fine. Once you see one, point her out!
Boy: Haha, alright.
*Boy and Girl walk around some more*
Boy: OH! I found one!
Girl: Really?! Where?!
*Boy puts arm around Girl’s shoulder*
Boy: Right here.

I miss you. I can’t take this anymore. I can’t just sit here and think about you every day. I want to see you now. But how? I wish I could drive already. Distance is a bitch. I wish I could see you at least twice a week. But it’s okay, we still manage. I just miss you so much, I guess. I miss being next to you, I miss holding onto you, I miss seeing you. I miss everything about you. If I could choose, I would never let you out of my arms again.

xoxo,

AQILAH ANUAR

WHAT GOES IN MY PHONE

1. What is your current ringtone?
- Walk Away by Paula Deanda

2. What is your current wallpaper?
- Picture of me

3. Do you own a picture phone?
- YES :)

4. If so, what was the last picture you took?
- myself

5. Go to your text message inbox and type what the 10th message from the top says:
- "It's idzul. I'm sorry. Please forgive me ?"

6. How many contacts do you have on your phone?
- too many

7. Go to your last missed call, who was it?
- Amir Shukor

10. At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service?
- a full bar

11. Who's on your speed dial number 5?
- Iblyss Ben

12. Do you have a voicemail?
- no

13. How many contacts that start with the letter D do you have:
- seven

14. Who do you call the most?
- MAMA

15. How many text messages do you get a month?

- more than a hundred

16. Can you send pictures?

- you think ?

17. What are the last 4 digits to your number?

- 9708

18. Go to your sent texts, what does the eighth one say?

- "Huh ? Oh yeah ? hmm"

19. What about the 15th?
- "yes ?"

20. Who's the last person that you called?
- youyouyou !

22. Last person that texted you?

- Rudy

23. Last person you added to your address book?

- Maya, maybe ?

24. How many minutes are on your plan?

- depend

25. Do you like your phone?

- Hell yeah

26. What is it?

- sony ericsson G705

27. Wanna give out your number?

- you bet your ass, I'm not :)

AMANAH :)

Assalamualaikum and hi readers :)

Actually I don't know where and how to start, haha. Okay first time aku langkah masuk dekat kelas amanah masa tahun lepas January 4th 2009. it was the worst day ever ! sebab korang semua tak nak layan kitorg yg dari kelas bakti ni :( masa tu aku, mira, mai, mimie, nadhi, hazrinah, nazifa, aqqil, zulhusni, habib dgn syazrin kene tukar kelas. kitorg dapat masuk kelas amanah. korang semua mcm palau kitorg. yelah kitorg kan tak pandai mcm korang. pastu dah lama lama kita dah boleh lepak sama-sama doh ! gelak, rehat, belajar semua sama. makan minum share pun dah tak kesah. paling best masa exam sebab kita semua "saling bantu-membantu" hehe. pastu akhir tahun korang buat jamuan. aku tak dtg pun -.-' aku operation weh masa tu. sorang pun tak tahu. hahaha

Then this year we met again. first day sekolah aku nangis gila babi. sebab aku kene turun kelas kan. mati mati aku tak nak. aku naik je kelas heboh semua ada budak turun kelas. aku tanya semua tak nak bgtau. pastu tanya Aliff dia ckp "KAU LAH" babi, kejam kau :'( hahahaha sorry. but then aku dapat masuk kelas amanah balik. yeay ! seronok gila weh aku masa tu. yeah for sure aku nak spend time dengan korang this year. aku nak belajar betul betul. tapi mcm taik jugak result aku -.-' kita dah mcm adik-beradik kan ? hehe :D eh eh kita dulu pergi taman tar sama sama kan ? ada masa tu kita tengok wayang sama sama kan abso kan ? cerita Percy Jackson and the Lighting Thieves. dgn nisha sekali masa tu. hehe, best ! pastu ada kita belajar sama sama kan ? dalam kelas, dewan, kantin, court futsal pun ada. pastu kita buka puasa sama sama kan ? kita shopping kan kan ? pastu sambut birthday aku dekat alibaba kan weh kan ? bestnya. this year is the best year ever weh :') pastu pastu time futsal AMANAH ALL-STAR menang kan ? wahhhh :D

weh, AKU RINDU KORANG :'( dah lah last day sekolah aku tak datang. korang dah lah ramai yg pindah. jangan lah pindah weh. siapa nak duduk sebelah aku nanti ? siapa yg nak belajar dengan aku nanti ? siapa nak teman aku pergi tandas nanti ? siapa yg nak stay back dengan aku tiap tiap hari nanti ? siapa yg nak lari dgn aku masa merentas desa nanti ? siapa yg nak rehat dgn aku lepas ni ? JANGAN LAH TINGGALKAN AKU :'( weh ingat aku tau kalau korang pindah mana mana pun. kalau korang nampak aku lepas ni tegur tau ? AKU SAYANG KORANG :')

Banyak sangat benda yg kita buat sama sama. banyak sangat memori kita. aku tak boleh nak recall. banyak sangat sangat. everyday dengan korang. everyday masuk kelas yg sama, muka yg sama selama 2 tahun. and this is the best I've ever had :) thanks you guys. I love you so much and I'm gonna miss you guys so much ♥

ps : I'm crying while i typing this :') and please listen to this song, press play

sincerely,

NUR AQILAH AIMI ANUAR

dedicated to me :)

when you lose someone, someone you love. when they break your heart. it's the hardest thing you could ever go through. and no matter how much time has passed, it never really go away. you may think you're getting better, but then you get a flashback or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest. you fall apart, for the hundredth time. and you feel like just want to crawl under the rock and never come out. you love this person with all your heart. even tough you know you shouldn't. they hurt you worse than you ever been hurt. they stole your happiness. but yet you still want them, only them. other people come along and give other chances to move on, but you know you don't want to. it upsets you that you might be moving on, because you promise you never would. and even they broke all their promises, you want to keep yours. on top of that, you're terrified, terrified of getting hurt again. but it's not like it matters anyway, at the end of the day you still thinking about the person who has left you completely broken. you don't want to miss them anymore. you don't want to love them anymore, but you know you always will.

when i first saw you , i was afraid to meet you , when i first met you , i was afraid to hold you , when i first held you , i was afraid to kiss you , when i first kiss you , i was afraid to love you , and now that i love you im afraid to lose you

with love

ILASOURUS

okay now I'm gonna walk far away from you. it's hurt actually. yes i'm smiling and i'm laughing. but it doesn't mean i'm happy. and yet i'm crying inside my heart. i'm sorry for hurting you on that night. if you want to go just go. i don't want to beg anymore. buang masa kan ? I hate you but deep deep inside my heart I still love you. please trust me if you come back in my life i'll 10 times better than before. that is my promise. so, bye take care :)

xoxo,

AQILAH ANUAR

happiness start with ONE WORD, ONE TEXT, ONE PHONE CALL, ONE KISS, ONE HUG.

and stop with ONE MISTAKE

You’re my honeybunch sugarplum pumpy-umpi umpkin
You’re my sweetie pie
You’re my cuppy cake gumdrop snoogums-boogums
You’re the apple of my eye…

And I love you so
And I want you to know
That I’ll always be right here

And I love to sing this song to you
Because you are so dear

I've kissed someone

[X] on the cheek.
[X] on the lips.
[X] on their hands or fingers.
[X] in my room.
[ ] in their room.
[X] of the opposite sex.
[X] of the same sex
[ ] a little younger than me.
[X] a little older than me.
[X] with black hair.
[X] with curly hair.
[ ] blonde hair
[ ] brown hair
[ ] blonde hair and blue eyes.
[ ] with red hair
[X] with straight hair.
[X] shorter than me.
[ ] with a lip ring.
[X] who i truly love/loved.
[ ] who was drunk.
[ ] who was high.
[X] in the morning.
[ ] right after waking up
[ ] just before bed.
[X] late at night.
[X] who I had just met.
[ ] who I really didn't want to kiss.
[ ] while i was going out with some else.
[X] on a bed.
[ ] in a graveyard.
[X] at school.
[X] against a wall.
[ ] at a show.
[ ] at the beach.
[ ] in a pool.
[X] who was/is a good friend.
[X] in the rain.
[ ] with an std.
[ ] in the shower/tub
[X] in a car/taxi/bus.
[ ] on a plane.
[ ] in the movies.
[ ] in a bathroom.
[X] in the dark.
[ ] on a roof top.
[ ] under water.
[ ] while driving
[ ] a stranger
[ ] more than one person at once.
[X] and cried.
[X] goodbye forever.
[ ] when i was drunk.
[ ] who didn't speak english
[ ] with an accent.

sincerely from

ILASOURUS :)

Hey, I'm kinda miss you. Bye =.='

hell yeah, it's true !

-> Remember when we were 11 years old? And we couldn't wait until we were teenagers? We looked at all those cool teens, with their cool cell phones, and cool Facebook's. Their cool makeup and cool clothes. All those cool boys they hung out with & going to PG-13 movies, with their cool friends. We looked at them and thought they were so cool, because they listened to those cool IPods, and wouldn't turn the volume down when their parents asked. We couldn't wait to grow up. We couldn't wait to wear that cool makeup, and hang out with those cool boys. We couldn't wait to not listen to our parents & blame it on being a teenager

->And now that we’re teenagers, what were we thinking back then? Some of us put makeup on every morning, hoping that that one boy will notice us. We listen to our IPods so loudly to block out the world and all the drama. We’re sick of our cell phones and Facebooks. We turn off our phones. And log off of Facebook. Because we don’t want to talk to anyone. We can’t stand our friends & want to be a little kid again. So this is to all you non-teens, never grow up.

ps : copy and paste from Maya :) thanks babe.

:'( / :)

heyy, now I express my feelings to you, I need you.

Hey you know what ? I was so GLAD to hear that :) I was so excited when I got a text from you dude. you don't know how happy was I. but then you ignore me. why dude why ? gosh, I feel like I want to cut you into pieces ! grr ! I don't care how my life would be if I'm with you. I don't care what my friends gonna said about you. I don't care all that. I just want you. I just want to be with you. please weh please ? don't make me suffer again. I'm tired, I'm sick of your game. I don't want to cry again because of you. I love you so much. I never love someone like this. but then you came into my life everything change in my life. everything is different now. you came when someone that I love leave me. I was glad that you as my friend there when I need someone. but then you leave me speechless. I don't know why. but I still love you. tak pernah kurang. since the first time I said I love you until now my love to you never change. remember, it's never change. if you read this please understand what I mean. Thank you, I love you :')

with love,

AQILAH ANUAR

Nur Syahmi Syafiqah bt Nor' Azam

Thanks for accompany me while I was alone, friend :)

I LOVE YOU mak orang ♥

with love,

ILASOURUS

GTH you SOAB !

dude, what's wrong with you ? have I done something bad to you ? huh ? rasanya mcm tak ada. but why weh why are you keep blaming me of what had happened ? huh ?! batak sangat aku nak cerita dekat semua orang kisah hidup kau ? batak sangat ke weh ? haram jadah, sikit pun tak lah. untuk apa weh aku nak cerita dekat kawan kawan kau pasal kau ? fikir lah do, lepak pulak aku dengan dorang weh ? bercakap pulak aku dengan dorang weh ? dah lah weh, stop lah nak blaming orang. padahal kau tak sedar yg kau dah korek kubur untuk diri kau sendiri. kau buat jerat untuk diri kau sendiri. tak sedar ke ? kau jumpa aku nanti kau tanya ea apa dia ? dan sebab dia sekali mana aku tahu benda haram ni. sudah sudah lah tu nak buruk buruk kan nama orang. sudah sudah lah tu nak bagi orang sakit hati. kau tak tahu apa benda hujung pangkal kau terus je nak maki maki. kau ingat aku ni apa ? ROBOT ? hell no ! I am not that kind of girl yg kau boleh pijak kepala dia suka hati kau je. even aku baru je kenal kau tapi aku rasa mcm dah cukup dah kenal kau dengan waktu yg singkat mcm ni. weh kalau aku nak cerita dekat kawan kawan kau pasal kau pun aku takkan buka cerita pasal aku sekali lah. kau ingat aku bodoh ? I've had enough !

sincerely from

AQILAH ANUAR