Dude, who am I to you actually ? Friend ? Best friend ? More than friend ? Do you love me ? If you don't just said so. It doesn't matter. Yes I am totally fall for you. I don't care if you don't love me pun. But please jangan buat mcm ni. It's hurt. Kau pernah ckap yg kau sayang aku tapi kau tak tahu nak express mcm mana kan ? Sorry to say yg aku tak tahu nak percaya atau tak benda tu. Sebab kau tak pernah serious dengan aku. Kau selalu sangat main main. Bila aku serious kau main main, bila kau serious aku fikir kau main main. So mcm mana sekarang ni ? Apa status aku sebenarnya ? Bila aku layan kau mcm kawan kau cakap aku tak layan kau mcm couple. Padahal kau bukan couple aku pun. I've been waiting for five months but nothing change. Benda sama yg jadi setiap kali jumpa, setiap kali contact. Kalau kau perasan every time kita nak stop contact mesti sebab gaduh. Gaduh pasal benda remeh je pun. Lepas tu kau tak contact aku seminggu kau cari perempuan lain, tak ada orang nak layan kau, kau cari aku balik. Pastu aku pulak pergi layan kau, ergh -.-' Okay aku tahu benda tu bodoh. Nahh forget it. And benda tu akan repeat lagi sampai ntah bila ntah. and kau pernah juga cakap "MAYBE WE ARE NOT MEANT TO BE TOGETHER". Sometimes aku fikir mcm ya, sometimes mcm tak. Sometimes aku fikir we are good together. Why don't we just be like others ? Why don't we be like syahmi dgn dzafry ? Why don't we be like nadhi and syukur ? Honestly I am so fuckin jealous with them. Hehe, tapi bukan lah mcm tu. Jealous sebab aku rasa aku deserve better than this, I know you are not that great. You are not that handsome. You are not like any other boys and that is why i love you. So much. And kau akan cari mcm mana cara pun untuk jumpa aku. Even mcm 5 minutes je pun jadi. But we are not love. Technically we are just friend. And actually secret friend. sebab relationship kita tak ada yang tahu. And now kau dah tak text aku dah berapa hari dah ? Aku dah malas nak kira. thanks sebab buat aku mcm ni. K bye.
with love,
AQILAH ANUAR