After all, what matter is not the first, but the last chapter of our life which shoes how well we ran the race.
So smile, laugh, forgive, believe and love all over again.
NAAA
a note to self
Someday, we will forget the hurt. The reason and who caused the pain. We will finally realize that the secret of being free in not revenge, but letting things unfold in their on way and own time.
After all, what matter is not the first, but the last chapter of our life which shoes how well we ran the race.
So smile, laugh, forgive, believe and love all over again.
After all, what matter is not the first, but the last chapter of our life which shoes how well we ran the race.
So smile, laugh, forgive, believe and love all over again.
So now you ask me why I haven't talked to you ? Well maybe it's because you slowly pushed me out of your life. You know what I'm really glad you finally noticing it. But too bad it's too late for you to notice. Cause I've moved on. So now just go on with your life and stop bothering me. You already have a girlfriend, so there's no need to find me anymore. And we can't even be friends because I haven't forgiven you yet or maybe I can't even forgive you. What you have done to me was so unexpected and I can't accept that. Oh thanks for everything.
'with love',
NAAA
I wish that I had NEVER met you.
Then there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you. No need for loving you. No for crying over you. No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten promises. No need for rejected hugs. No need for acting like you care. No need, for everything you have done to make me feel like absolutely nothing.
sincerely,
NAAA
And The Test Begin !
Assalamualaikum, hi !
So the final exam just started on last Tuesday. Actually on Friday. But I didn't take Account. So I don't have to come to school pun. My first paper was Sc Sukan I then II. Okay it was quiet okay. Then on the next day was Bahasa Melayu paper 1 and 2. It was so daammnnn hard. My karangan was like euuwww ! And same goes to my BI paper. Erghh. For BM paper 1, ada soalan pasal kepentingan sukan and sama jugak mcm BI benefits of sports for students. I got all the points, but I really got no idea how to elaborate them. To make them more interesting. Yeah I'm really sucks at writing. Especially on my BI paper. Stupid ! When my brain was stuck I look around the class, everybody was busy writing their essay. And I was like, 'asal aku bangang sangat ni ?' -_- Okau enough with BM and BI.
Today I have Mathematics paper1 and 2. Yeah, paper 1 was OKAY. But for paper 2 I'm feeling wanna ripped the paper throw it in the effin drain. Serioushit ! There's so many straight lines questions. And I didn't answer any of them. Dah lah 6 marks semua. Watefak, I don't know how to find the equation. My brain was blank that time. Then out of nowhere suddenly cikgu Azian masuk kelas then nak marah-marah. And again I was like watefak. Apahal dia ni do ? Reti faham orang lain nak jawab soalan ni. K I don't wanna talk about her. So 8 papers done. And I have 15 more papers to go. Wish me luck guys :B Toodles ~
with love,
NAAA
Happy Born Day :)
Hello and Assalamualaikum :)
Yesterday was 9.10.11. Yes it is a beautiful date. But it doesn't mean my day was as beautiful as the date. Actually yesterday was my birthday. I'm not really sure whether I'm happy or not. Macam 50-50. I'm happy because it's my birthday, but I'm sad because he didn't remember it's my birthday. Yes he didn't remember my birth date. Damn you. But hmm I guess it's okay. It's really okay. I'm nothing to him kan ? So just chill lek k, hihi.
So got this one new cool nike sling bag from mama and a load of wishes from my friends. Text, facebook, twitter, BBM. Penat tahu nak reply ? Most of them wish I could get over MH quickly. Haha it's so funny and I'm touched. The first text wishes I got is from Nur Arina, yeah please bangga sikit. Actually she send it through BBM. The text is kinda rempit but I love it, haha. Dah munch screen tapi malas nak upload. And the laaaasssttt wishes I got is from Syarmimie Saari sayang D. At first I thought " Mimie lupa birthday aku ? Sampai hati tau " Serious rasa mcm nak nangis. Yes and it's really special tau ? Sebab ? Sebab dia last, haha. Dania I got three wishes from her, BBM, twitter then WhatsApp. Gyeah whatsapp. In the morning I checked my phone then there's a notification from WhatsApp. I really really thought and hope it was from MH. But it's not ! Hahaha. Pity me. Sumpah I was like excited gila, at last it's not him. Nahh it's okay. Oh and that night I got a call from Nadhi Tumis and Syahmi. At first I was like Nadhi mana ? Biasanya Nadhi lah orang first, haha. She's having dinner with her family that time.
Tomorrow I will be facing my finals exam. The first paper is Sc Sukan. I have read ermm sikit je. Err wish me luck lah k. I really hope that I can get straight A's. But I know it's impossible to get. Especially on Add Maths, Physics and BM. Add Maths nak lulus pun susah, lagi kau nak dapat A ? Memang takdo aa cite dia. And I have to get ready for the 'gift'. Gift as in tepungs, telurs, kunyits, pewarna, and maybe with glitters too. Haishh, wish me luck. And good luck to all my friends in this final exam and YEAY to PMR candidates batch '96. Goodbye have a nice day everyone :)
ps: Thank you for all the wishes. I really appreciate it
xoxo
NAAA
What am I doing ? What am I thinking ? What the hell I actually want in my life ? I don't know. I really don't know. Life now is just too cruel. It just ... I can't stand it anymore. I can't go on like this. I hate my life. I want my life goes on like how my life goes on 2010. I don't want this shits. I don't want all these people around me. I want my 2010 back. Ya Allah, I can't bear it anymore. i'm tired, I'm sick of all these same shits. Mann, I didn't ask to be like this, I didn't ask my life to be like this. And I didn't ask for this tons of shits-craps-nonsense-stupid-worthless ... eeiii fuck this world ! I hate my life on 2011. It's just too much drama for me. I'm not being ungrateful but it just, I don't know. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me lately. I'm sorry for being too emotional tonight. Good night readers. Have a good day tomorrow. Assalamualaikum :)
NAAA
Cilok from Arina :D
1. Your ex texted you and wanted you back. Would you take him back?
- Err no. Tapi kalau MH ... hmm
2. Has anyone told you 'forever and ever' then left?
- Gyeah baybeh
3. Your relationship status?
- in a relationship with my blackberry ?
4. Where did you meet your crush(es)?
- School
5. Have you ever lost your close friend?
- Berapa puluh kali ntah
6. Do you smoke weed regularly?
- you effin kiddin me ?
7. Would you parents be mad if you were in a relationship?
- hah of course
8. When was the last time you really laughed?
- Last night
9. Angry at anyone?
- yes, it's you
10. When was the last time you cried really hard?
- The last two nights
11. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
- Parents, MH. MH ?!!!
12. What is your favorite song?
- I gotta a mo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ves like Jagger
13. How many people can you tell just about everything to?
- Only myself
14. Describe yourself in one word.
- sodayumcute
15. Ever cheated on someone?
- Boleh bunuh diri skang siapa yg tak pernah menipu
16. Is it hard to make you laugh?
- Haa try lah
17. Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?
- Yeah, the most comfort place to fall asleep kan ?
18. Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
- it's mimie and nadhi. *tahu je apa benda yg aku fikir. tuii
19. Are you happy with life right now?
- he left me speechless you dofus. then you ask me to be happy. you effin kiddin me ? erghh
20. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- yes and it hurts. a lot.
- Err no. Tapi kalau MH ... hmm
2. Has anyone told you 'forever and ever' then left?
- Gyeah baybeh
3. Your relationship status?
- in a relationship with my blackberry ?
4. Where did you meet your crush(es)?
- School
5. Have you ever lost your close friend?
- Berapa puluh kali ntah
6. Do you smoke weed regularly?
- you effin kiddin me ?
7. Would you parents be mad if you were in a relationship?
- hah of course
8. When was the last time you really laughed?
- Last night
9. Angry at anyone?
- yes, it's you
10. When was the last time you cried really hard?
- The last two nights
11. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
- Parents, MH. MH ?!!!
12. What is your favorite song?
- I gotta a mo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ves like Jagger
13. How many people can you tell just about everything to?
- Only myself
14. Describe yourself in one word.
- sodayumcute
15. Ever cheated on someone?
- Boleh bunuh diri skang siapa yg tak pernah menipu
16. Is it hard to make you laugh?
- Haa try lah
17. Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?
- Yeah, the most comfort place to fall asleep kan ?
18. Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
- it's mimie and nadhi. *tahu je apa benda yg aku fikir. tuii
19. Are you happy with life right now?
- he left me speechless you dofus. then you ask me to be happy. you effin kiddin me ? erghh
20. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- yes and it hurts. a lot.
Okay thanks :)
Okay so Hi and Assalamualaikum :)
So that piece of crap is from my baby Mimie's blog. She made that post for me. With Nadhi's help. Okay thank you thank you very much. It really surprising me when I open her blog ada title post punya lah besar tulis ' MH Paling Sial '. Then there's big picture of him siap ada conteng conteng kat muka dia. Ya Allah, pity him. neh nvm no need to pity for him.
Guys I want you to know that it's not easy for me to be like this. I didn't asked to be like this. I don't wanna be like this. I am trying to move on. And actually dah move on sikit. My situation now is far, way too far from you guys. Tak sama. Tak sama langsung. Seriously tak sama. Langsung k langsung. It just so hard to let him go. Anyway thanks guys for cheering me up everyday. Me loves you so much, muah muah.
xoxo,
NAAA
I wish that I had never met you. Then there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you. No need for loving you. No need for crying over you. No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten promises. No need for rejected hugs. No need for crying myself to sleep. No need for acting like you care. No need, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing !
sincerely,
NAAA
Hello and Assalamualaikum :)
Sorry for the very very very loooonnnggggg pause. I know that you guys have been missing me alot. Yeah I know. But it's okay. I'm here baby. I'm back. Don't cry. Atototo. hihi. So lots of things had happened for this month. Oh happy fasting too all my muslim reader, stalker, follower etc.
Today is the 14th day of Ramadhan bersamaan dengan empat belas hari bulan lapan. yeah ! and tomorrow is LIMA BELAS HARI BULAN LAPAN. Haa nampak ? Dah caps lock tu, takkan tak nampak ? If you can't see you should buy a spec. JK ! That date is actually means a lot to me. Yeah of course it's about me and MH. I know it has been like 5 or 6 months I haven't talk to him. Eh actually hari tu dia ada tegur kita dekat WhatsApp. Tapi kita takde BIS. Hihi. So if we're still together tomorrow would be our first anniversary. But too bad that we're over. *crying on the floor.
lots of love,
NAAA
Awak sampai bila kita nak macam ni ? Sampai bila awak nak seksa kita mcm ni ? Sampai bila wak ? Awak tahu kita sayang awak kan ? Kenapa awak sanggup buat kita mcm ni ? Sampai hati awak. Awak memang tak pernah kesian kat kita kan ? Kita tahu lah awak tak pernah faham perasaan kita, tapi awak tak kesian ke tgk kita ? Puluh kali kita kata kita sayang awak. Tapi apa awak ckp ? Awak ckp awak syg kita. Tapi tu semua dulu. Sekarang awak dah takde perasaan dah kat kita. Bukan kita saje buat cerita, benda awak sendiri mengaku. Tapi ... kenapa ? Kita buat salah apa ? Bila kita tanya kenapa, awak kata taknak benda tu ulang balik. Awak, kita dah kata benda tu takkan ulang balik. Kita janji wak benda tu takkan ulang balik. Dan alasan yg awak bagi tu alasan paling BODOH sekali kita pernah dengar dalam dunia ni. Benda tu memang tak mungkin akan ulang balik. Awak sendiri boleh fikir kan. Awak, kita tak suka awak buat kita cenni wak. Sumpah sakit. Kita tahu awak nak SPM. But at least bagi lah alasan yg munasabah sikit. ni alasan awak tu sumpah kita takleh terima. Alasan paling bodoh sekali kita pernah dengar dalam dunia ni k.
NAAA
So today is the second day of school. I got all the result for my midterm exam. Except for BM. Semua markah menaik. Tapi pahal BI aku B ? Sumpah aku down gila babi semalam bila dapat kertas BI. Add maths failed pun boleh lek gelak-gelak lagi. Paling tak menahan bila awe dapat A. Why awe can get A and I can't ? This is so unfair alright ! Tu lah ila, lain kali essay tu dah tak yah nak merepek sangat eh. And I told my mum ada failed and she was like 'takpe nanti exam lepas ni buat elok-elok. Jangan nak online sangat. I know you can do it better' Haaa and I was shocked. I thought she was gonna scolded me or something err en. Alhamdulillah, hehe :D
Oh tadi dah bercakap sikit dengan dia. Dia tegur lah jugak, at least. Hmm. Idk why hari ni asyik kantoi je usha dia. Baru pandang sikit je dia dah perasan. Memang tak kantoi busuk lah kan ? Ya Allah sumpah lah segan. Takpe, kita tengok esok mcm mana pulak. K toodles ~
with love,
NAAA
So am now at kampung. Went to someone’s wedding near my house. The ayam golek is so yummy. Internet connection here is better and faster than Ampang ya know. So this holiday I didn’t go anywhere. Balik kampung je. I wanna go out with my girlfriends. I miss them so much. And I wanna meet MH too. But unfortunately he just fly to Paris with his family. And mummy not allows me to go out. Why ? It’s because she thinks that I’m still 6 years-not-very-little- girl. She said that I’ll spend a lot of money when I go out. Alaa I won’t lah. I know how to use my money wisely. Seriously she thinks that I can’t take care of myself. I only wanna go to galaxy to watch Kung Fu Panda pun tak bagi. Nak makan Taiwan pun tak bagi. Hmm, I’m so jealous with all my friends that can go hang out with their other friends. I feel like I’m in jail ya know. Hmm sokay. Nvm, everything happen for a reason en ? Redha je lah, hihihi. Have a great holidays yo reader (stalker) :)
Xoxo,
NAAA
I HATE YOU
I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you’re always right, I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you, not even close… not even a little bit…not even at all.
WE'RE MEANT TO BE SAYANG :)
Slowly stars go out each night
Dark meets light, kiss the sun goodnight
New day comes as our life's just begun
You're now mine
And every time you hold my hand
There's and understanding of who I am
New life is born unlike before
I'm now yours
You can feel it in the summer breeze
Tonight the world's at ease
You are the one for me
After all the waiting I can finally breathe
Earth and skies say what they may
I will love you all throughout my days
Happiness happens when our hearts combine
When it's you I'm with I come alive
It's just so clear to see
Darling we are meant to be
Your love is like amazing grace
Sounds so sweet I can almost taste
I've been given more what I could ever asked for
I am yours
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/melissa_polinar/meant_to_be.html ]
I can feel it in the summer breeze
Tonight the world's at ease
You are the one for me
After all the waiting I can finally breathe
Earth and skies say what they may
I will love you all throughout my days
Happiness happens when our hearts combine
When it's you I'm with I come alive
It's just so clear to see
Darling we are meant
I feel at home whenever your around
I feel so secure, so safe and sound
What else can I say
What else can I say
You are the one for me
After all the waiting I can finally breathe
Earth and skies say what they may
I will love you all throughout my days
Happiness happens when our hearts combine
When it's you I'm with I come alive
It's just so clear to see
Darling we are meant
Darling we are meant to be
Dark meets light, kiss the sun goodnight
New day comes as our life's just begun
You're now mine
And every time you hold my hand
There's and understanding of who I am
New life is born unlike before
I'm now yours
You can feel it in the summer breeze
Tonight the world's at ease
You are the one for me
After all the waiting I can finally breathe
Earth and skies say what they may
I will love you all throughout my days
Happiness happens when our hearts combine
When it's you I'm with I come alive
It's just so clear to see
Darling we are meant to be
Your love is like amazing grace
Sounds so sweet I can almost taste
I've been given more what I could ever asked for
I am yours
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/melissa_polinar/meant_to_be.html ]
I can feel it in the summer breeze
Tonight the world's at ease
You are the one for me
After all the waiting I can finally breathe
Earth and skies say what they may
I will love you all throughout my days
Happiness happens when our hearts combine
When it's you I'm with I come alive
It's just so clear to see
Darling we are meant
I feel at home whenever your around
I feel so secure, so safe and sound
What else can I say
What else can I say
You are the one for me
After all the waiting I can finally breathe
Earth and skies say what they may
I will love you all throughout my days
Happiness happens when our hearts combine
When it's you I'm with I come alive
It's just so clear to see
Darling we are meant
Darling we are meant to be
Okay just a short post. Aku dah taktau apa nasib aku esok ni. Chemist paper 2 and 3. Shit I didn't study at all. I've lost my Chemistry text book. Babi err siapa yg ambik tu. Dah hilang canne aku nak study yang naphthalene bagai tu ? Yang mole tu aku tau ler. Tadi dah ada budak kantoi meniru. Ya Allah, sumpah ler aku takut. Ntah canne ntah ni esok. Err, nvm. Wish me luck. Bye.
xoxo,
NAAA
Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I've sat in my room and cried, how many times I've lost hope, how many times I've been let down. Nobody knows how many times I've had to hold back the tears, how many times I've felt like I'm about to snap but don't just for the sake of others. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head whenever I'm sad, how horrible they truly are. Nobody knows me.
sincerely
me
GIRLS
This is for the girls who have the tendency to stay up all night listening to music that reminds them of their current situation. Who hide their fears, hurt, pain and tears under their smiles and laughs all on a daily basis. The girls who wear their hearts on their sleeve. The girls who pray things will workout just once and they’ll be satisfied. The girls who scream and cry into their pillows because the rest of the world fails to listen. The girls who have it hard but don’t let anyone know that. The girls who may never have it easy. The girls who have so many secrets but will never tell a soul. The girls who have regrets and mistakes as a daily moral. The girls who don’t always win, who may never win. The girls who stay up all night thinking about that one boy wondering if he’ll ever notice her. The girls who get what they get and don’t throw a fit. The girls who take life as it comes, hoping it’ll get easier somewhere down the road. The girls who love with all their hearts but always get broken. This is for the real girls. This is for you.
xoxo,
NAAA
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