If the dews froze under the Sahara,
The blaze will not then wither the will,
If the peace is no longer fluttering doves,
THEN THE HATE THEN WILL TURN TO LOVE

THE END

So today is 31st December 2010. Which is the last day of this year. I feel like this year en mcm panjang sangat. too much memories. aku masuk hospital ya tahun ni. actually every year doh. but this year paling lama. 2 minggu bhai =.=' then ada PMR, ada bf *cehh, haha. seriously banyak sangat benda berubah ya tahun ni. masa form 2 aku single setahun tu. tetiba bulan 5 ada Idzul. lepas tu aku campak dia masuk lombong. gyeah, some guy are useless. okay, SOME-GUY. lagi tahun ni sekolah pagi. sumpah rasa dia lain mcm bila sekolah pagi. and the most important thing is I met you. Even dah bulan 7 baru jumpa pun but still this year. and new best friend. gyeah it's you rorie ;) and now aku tak tahu apa benda lagi nak merepek. hee :d sorry for the lame post and wasting your time. k bye :)

THE 100TH TRUTHS ABOUT ME

1. Real name : Nur Aqilah Aimi bt Anuar

2. Nickname(s): aqilah, qila, ila, adik, bee, abby, kakak -.-'

3. Zodiac Sign: LIBRA

4. Male or female: female

5. Elementary School: Sekolah Kebangsaan Ampang

6. High School: SMK Dato' Ahmad Razali

7. College: cooming soon bebeh

8. Hair color: brown black

9. Tall or short : Tall :D

10. Friends or family : Family is more important

11. Sweats or Jeans: jeans

12. Phone or Camera: camera

13. Health freak: none

14. Orange or Apple: orange

15. Do you have a crush on someone? OF COURSE

16. Eat or Drink: drink

17. Piercings: Yes

18. Pepsi or Coke: COKE ! :D


HAVE YOU EVER ?


19. Been in an airplane: yes

20. Been in a relationship: yes

21. Been in a car accident: almost

22. Been in prison: NEVER EVER

23. First piercing: ears

24. First best friend: AMIR IZZUDIN AND MASIHTA PARMAN UNTIL NOW :)

25. First award: apa benda competiton ntah masa tadika, hihi

26. First crush: ehem ehem, ntah lah. hahaha

27. First word: taaaa :D *comel en

29. Last person you talked to in person: my mum

30. Last person you texted: woody warmly, haha

31. Last person you watched a movie with : iblyss ben

32. Last food you ate: yong tau foo

33. Last movie you watched : eclipse kot, kot lah

34. Last song you listened to: thanks for the memories by fall out boy

35. Last thing you bought : top up

36. Last person you hugged: MY MAN :D


FAVOURITES?


37. Food: segala jenis benda yg mama masak :D

38. Drink: coke

39. Bottoms: jeans

40. Flower: lavender, red rose, tulips

42. Colours: RED

43. Movies: the confession of a shopaholic

44. Subjects: english maybe o.O


HAVE YOU EVER:


45. [ x ] fell in love with someone

46. [ ] celebrated Halloween

47. [ x ] had your heart broken.

48. [ x ] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone.

49. [ ] had someone question my sexual orientation.

50. [ x ] been with someone that you don't want to

51. [ ] got pregnant.

52. [ ] had an abortion.

53. [ x ] did something I regret.

54. [ x ] broke a promise.

55. [ x ] hide a secret.

56. [ x ] pretended to be happy.

57. [ x ] met someone who changed your life.

58. [ x ] pretended to be sick

59. [ x ] left the country.

60. [ x ] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it.

61. [ x ]cried over the silliest thing.

62. [ ] ran a mile.

63. [ ] went to the beach with your best friend.

64. [ x ] kissed someone and regret it

65. [ x ] hated someone.

66. [ ] stayed single for 2 years * setahun setengah pernah :D

RIGHT NOW


67. Eating: nothing

68. Drinking: lychee

69. Listening: walk away by paula deanda

70. Sitting/Laying: laying

71. Plans for today : not a thing

72. waiting : for you to reply my text


YOUR FUTURE:


73. Want kids?: maybe

74. Want to get married?: of course

75. Career: doctor or lecturer

76. Lips or eyes: eyes

77. Shorter or taller: taller and taller and taller

78. Romantic or spontaneous: err romantic ?

79. Married or career : career then i will get married

80. stay with parent or moving out : stay with my parent

81. Hook-up or relationship : relationship. *can we move on ?

82. Looks or personality: personality

HAVE YOU EVER:


83. Lost glasses/contacts: tak kot

84. Made out with someone : HELL NO !

85. wanted to kill yourself : sometimes yeah, haha

86. Killed somebody: nope

87. Broken someone's heart: gyeah

88. Been in love: NOW I AM IN LOVE

89. Cried when someone die : yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:


90. Yourself: sometimes

91. Miracles: maybe

92. Love at first sight: Nahh

93. Heaven: YES

94. Santa Claus: hahaha, tak

95. Sex on the first date: HUH ?

96. Kiss on the first date: HEHEHE :D

TRUTHFULLY:


97. Is there one person you want to be with right now: yes, it's you MH :)

98. Do you know who your real friends are: NOPE

99. Do you believe in God: of course i do

100. Post as 100 truths? HELL YEAH BEBEH :D

DIFFERENCES BETWEEN FRIENDS AND BEST FRIENDS

FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”
FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “you will die in Seven days…” (Note, if you don’t understand this, watch The Ring. Then watch The Ring 2. Then watch Ringu.)
FRIENDS: Help you up when you fall.
BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”
FRIENDS: Help you find your prince.
BEST FRIENDS: Kidnap him and brings him to you.
FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.
BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”
FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.
BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.
FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month.
BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.
FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.
BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run, fucker, run!”
FRIENDS: Will help you move.
BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.
FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”
or
FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail again
BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying “DAMN!” we messed up!
FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIENDS: Help themselves and are the reason why you have no food.
FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!
FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.
FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.
BEST FRIENDS: Have you on speed dial.
FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”
FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…
FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd’s ass that left you
FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”
FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.
FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)
BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.
FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.
BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!
FRIENDS: Would read and ignore this.

WHAT IF THIS HAPPENED ?

Boy: I miss you.
Girl: And so?
Boy: I really did.
Girl: K.
Boy: I'm sorry.
Girl: What for?
Boy: For ignoring your efforts to communicate with me.
Girl: Its OK. I got used to it, then I got tired, so I stopped trying and started forgetting.
Boy: I..
Boy: I...tried to forget about you, you see.
Girl: ....
Boy: Cause it tore me apart that we can never be...
Girl: its OK.
Boy: Why is it so OK?
Girl: I got used to days hoping you'd be back, but then you never did. I started facing reality, and started to get a move on.
Boy: Wait...am I too late?
Girl: Too late for what?
Boy: To court you?
Girl: You know, I've always wanted to hear that from you. Back then, a year ago. But...I got used to only wishing for it..then realized it would never happen, so I stopped hoping.
Boy: I'm really sorry, but dont worry, this time, I will make your wishes come true.
Girl: Its my turn to say sorry. Time got into me. You've broken my heart already. I cant risk experiencing that again. :/ Thank you anyway. For communicating with me after a year of silence.
: '//

KEEP CALM AND SAY ALHAMDULILLAH

assalamualaikum and hi :)
okay so aku dapat berapa result tak penting. yg penting aku bangga sebab maths aku A. woot ! woot ! english tu dah memang aku confirm A yg lain tu aku tak kesah. cehh poyo. hahaha. congratulation dekat siapa yg dapat 8A tu. especially to Maizatul Syafiqah. sumpah aku mcm tak percaya minahchi sayang aku ni dapat 8A. and dia kene belanja aku tengok narnia kan mai kan ?

so next year aku fikir nak masuk kelas science. memang since form 1 aku memang nak masuk kelas sc. tapi semalam mama cakap tak payah masuk kelas sc. takut tak boleh bawak je nanti. mama suruh masuk kelas sastera. belajar sastera, masuk UPSI, jadi teacher or lecturer. pastu dah boleh ganti tempat mama uruskan syarikat dia. HELL NO ! aku tak nak. Oh man ! sumpah tak nak. aku tak reti lah nak mengajar orang ni. and aku tak nak jadi cikgu ke apa kejadahnya semua yg berkaitan dengan buku buku ni. aku tak nak. ergghh ! ntah, aku still jugak nak masuk kelas sc. aku nak belajar betul betul next year. K bye ~

xoxo,
AQILAH ANUAR

TOMORROW HUH ?

Hi,
tomorrow PMR's result will come out. no actually bukan esok. within 12 hours mcm tu je der :S goshh, sumpah mcm cuak gila babi sekarang. I hope i will get straight a's in my result. but mcm mana kalau tak dapat 8A ? mcm mana kalau tak dapat apa yg family aku harapkan ? mcm mana weh ? MACAM MANA ? Ya ALLAH, dah family aku semua nak buat gathering weekend ni. bagus, paling suka. I think i'm gonna kill myself now. K bye :|

OKAY, I LOVE YOU

okay, I have to admit it that I love you. SO MUCH. why ? err because. erm maybe sebab aku nampak kau mcm sayang je kat aku en. sumpah bila dengan kau, aku rasa lain. yes kita tak couple. kita tak perlu nak couple aku rasa. cukup kan untuk kau dan aku tahu yg aku sayang kau, and kau sayang aku. enough aite ? honestly aku sayang kau mcm lebih sangat dari kawan. jauhhhhhhhhhh sangat dah dari kawan. but sometimes aku rasa mcm tak perlu je nak sayang kau, sebab aku rasa mcm kau tak sayang aku der. tapi tapi kan kan, bila kau bgtau yg kau nangis tu kan. nasib aku tak ada heart attack. kalau ada aku mati dulu dari kau, haha. aku susah nak percaya benda tu, tapi bila aku fikir-fikir balik aku percaya. so now aku dah mcm 80% percaya dekat kau. belum sampai 100% lagi. FYI, aku dah sayang kau gila babi mcm nak mati punya sayang tahu ? Kau jangan nak suruh aku stop sayang kau. Aku akan stop sayang kau bila dah sampai masa dia nanti. Bila dah sampai masanya untuk aku campak kau jauh-jauh dalam lombong. K toodles ~

I'M MISSING YOU RIGHT NOW. DO YOU EVEN CARE ?


Hello blogger :)
It's 2 am and I'm still awake. I can't sleep. I keep thinking about you. I miss you. I miss you so much. I try to text you, but I know you won't reply. And if i call maybe you won't answer. I knew it already. But I can't stand it anymore. I'm tired of trying and I'm tired of waiting for your call or text every night. Macam mana kalau aku tak payah tunggu kau langsung ? Puas kannnnn ? =.='

ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEAR



Hi and assalamualaikum.
I'm gonna make a short entry here. As everyone know yg this 23rd result PMR keluar. Yeah, bodoh siapa yg tak cuak tu. Sumpah aku mcm cuak gila babeng. 1st aku takut kalau tak dapat apa yg family aku harapkan and 2nd aku takut aku hampakan diorg. Sumpah aku tak rasa yg aku boleh dapat 6A pun. Ni lagilah 8A kan ? Memang tak lah kan. Erghh. OMG, sumpah 23 tu bukannya lama lagi. Hmm, I think I'm gonna cry masa tu nanti. Mama I'm sorry if I didn't get a good result. Adik janji adik belajar betul-betul next year. And I am ready untuk nak dengar segala jenis ceramah 23 dec tu nanti, hihi :D Toodles ~

xoxo,
ILA

WHO AM I TO YOU ?



Dude, who am I to you actually ? Friend ? Best friend ? More than friend ? Do you love me ? If you don't just said so. It doesn't matter. Yes I am totally fall for you. I don't care if you don't love me pun. But please jangan buat mcm ni. It's hurt. Kau pernah ckap yg kau sayang aku tapi kau tak tahu nak express mcm mana kan ? Sorry to say yg aku tak tahu nak percaya atau tak benda tu. Sebab kau tak pernah serious dengan aku. Kau selalu sangat main main. Bila aku serious kau main main, bila kau serious aku fikir kau main main. So mcm mana sekarang ni ? Apa status aku sebenarnya ? Bila aku layan kau mcm kawan kau cakap aku tak layan kau mcm couple. Padahal kau bukan couple aku pun. I've been waiting for five months but nothing change. Benda sama yg jadi setiap kali jumpa, setiap kali contact. Kalau kau perasan every time kita nak stop contact mesti sebab gaduh. Gaduh pasal benda remeh je pun. Lepas tu kau tak contact aku seminggu kau cari perempuan lain, tak ada orang nak layan kau, kau cari aku balik. Pastu aku pulak pergi layan kau, ergh -.-' Okay aku tahu benda tu bodoh. Nahh forget it. And benda tu akan repeat lagi sampai ntah bila ntah. and kau pernah juga cakap "MAYBE WE ARE NOT MEANT TO BE TOGETHER". Sometimes aku fikir mcm ya, sometimes mcm tak. Sometimes aku fikir we are good together. Why don't we just be like others ? Why don't we be like syahmi dgn dzafry ? Why don't we be like nadhi and syukur ? Honestly I am so fuckin jealous with them. Hehe, tapi bukan lah mcm tu. Jealous sebab aku rasa aku deserve better than this, I know you are not that great. You are not that handsome. You are not like any other boys and that is why i love you. So much. And kau akan cari mcm mana cara pun untuk jumpa aku. Even mcm 5 minutes je pun jadi. But we are not love. Technically we are just friend. And actually secret friend. sebab relationship kita tak ada yang tahu. And now kau dah tak text aku dah berapa hari dah ? Aku dah malas nak kira. thanks sebab buat aku mcm ni. K bye.

with love,
AQILAH ANUAR

A DAY TO REMEMBER















Hi and assalamualaikum :)
Yesterday (14dec10) is a day to remember. this is the last time 3 Amanah hang out together. after this mybe dah tak boleh. sebab mesti ramai yg pindah, masuk asrama lah itulah inilah. so we spent the whole day together. mandi sungai, picnic, bbq etc. all of us arrived there around 7 and ada yg lagi awal, 6.45 dah ada. dah sampai lepak-lepak dulu. tunggu mimie bawak ayam. pukul 8 baru nak masuk bilik air memang tak doh aku cakap. nak dekat pukul 9 mcm tu dia datang. api dah siap nak buat bbq. so while tgh tunggu dia tu kitorg bakar jagung. haaa, sedap gila :D thanks to chef iman :) dia lah dgn nazmi yg bakar segala benda org lain duduk tengok je, hahaha. and then kitorg balik pukul 4 something. nampak mcm boring kan ? but actually we had so much fun. because it's amanah dude :D *poyokan ayat ? kesah weh ? tak, haha

with love,
AQILAH ANUAR

WHAT IF


Hello and assalamualaikum blogger :)
Now I'm not in good mood. Last night I slept in front of the tv in my living room at 4am. And woke up at 8 something. Actually last night at 2.15 am he called me. He just came back from Bandung I guess. Then suddenly he hung up the phone. And I was like ergghh -.-' *it happens all the time actually. But then I called him back. So I told him to meet me tomorrow. And he said I'm free tomorrow but I don't want to meet you. HELL YEAH ! to be lying I'm not upset at all, I don't shed a one tiny tear pun. But to be HONEST you make my heart turns into pieces and I cried all night long. *bodoh kan ? aku tahu. Fyi, we only contact like once or twice a week. Okay lah en, he is not my boyfriend pun. But the thing is I love him. I love him like I never been in love before. Last week he told me no matter what he still gonna loves me. But he don't know how to express his feeling to me. Seriously it sounds really gay. And I was lmao when he told me that. HAHA.

Okay,
What if one day he text me to say he gonna leave me ?
What if one day he call me to say this is our last conversation ?
What if one day he text me to say he already have another girl ?
What if one day he call me to say he didn't love me anymore ?

AND

What if one day I text him to say I'm gonna leave him ?
What if one day I call him just to say goodbye forever ?
What if one day I text him just to say I already have another boy that way much better than him ?
What if one day I call him just say that I have move on and I don't love him like used to ?

I am pretty sure that he would be glad to hear all these :(

with love,
AQILAH ANUAR

DEAR YOU,


I know there were other girls before me. I know that I wasn't your first love. I know that I wasn't the first to call you mine. I know that you've called other girls baby or babe before. I know that I wasn't your first kiss. But all I want is to be the last girl you'd ever be with, the last one that you'd love, the last one to call you mine, the last one you'd ever call baby or babe, and the last one to ever kiss you.

with love,
AQILAH ANUAR

HELL YEAH !


Hello, hi
Well now I am not really okay. I just otp with ehem. Heh, I hope he just playing around. I hope he's not that serious. Please honey please tell me that you just joking with me. like you always do. please ? omg, you make my heart turns into pieces. why dude why ? I feel like I want to cry now, but I can't. I seriously don't know why. maybe I had cried a lot because of you before. and you know what ? If you really mean it pun, I guess I will be okay. I will be fine. I got my rorie girls here :) I am strong enough to do this. I guess I am strong enough to let you go, move on and get a new life. Okay toodles ~

with love,
AQILAH ANUAR

WISHES

1- 8A's in my PMR result
2- A better life in 2011
3- Ed Hardy handbag :D
4- I want to be tall and thin
5- My parent will be okay
6- I won't forget to solat every day
7- I want to be a good girl
8- I wish I could hang out with you everyday
9- I wish every time we met we will fall in love again
10- I want to be the last girl you will love
11- I want you to be the last boy that I will loved
12- I want to wake every morning next to you
13- New DSLR, Ipod touch, laptop
14- I hope my life will be not this complicated
15- I want to start a new life
16- I wish that you are my soul mate
17- I wish that you will never break my heart so never cry because of you
18- I hope my parent will be proud of me one day
19- I want to share my whole life with you, just you
20- I want to marry you, hahahaha

AMIN :)


I GUESS

1- I guess you won't call or text me anymore
2- I guess you won't came to my house anymore
3- I guess we won't talk anymore
4- I guess we are not even a friend now
5- I guess I'm nothing to you

:|


:(

I wanna talk to you, but I don’t know what to say. I am afraid you don’t want me to say anything. So I don’t. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel, like how I miss you. And how I love you, despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart, locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too .. But I’ll never know.

WEDDING DRESS







I WANT IT ALL :D

I NEVER WANT TO TEXT ANYONE FIRST

Because:
I don’t want to be a bother to you.
I don’t want to feel like I’m annoying you.
I don’t like anticipating for your reply & waiting forever.
I don’t want to be interrupting you if you’re busy.
I don’t want to wake you up.
I don’t want you to think I’m some clingy ass person.
Because if someone wants to talk to me, they would.

IT DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING

Just because someone flirts with you, doesn’t mean they like you.
Just because someone likes you, doesn’t mean they want to date you.
Just because someone dates you, doesn’t mean they love you.
Just because someone loves you, doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you.

HOLIDAY HUH ?


Hello hi :D
me : school holiday pergi mana ?
beben : mana nak pergi ?
me : mana mana lah, janji keluar rumah.
beben : pavilion ?
*wakluuuu

me : maaa, cuti ni kita pergi mana ?
mama : balik kampung.
me : oh bila ?
mama : next week
me : lepas tu pergi mana lagi ?
mama : balik sini lah. mama busy bulan ni.
*ayat tu yang 'paling' aku 'nak' dengar sebenarnya

Well honestly I'm so jealous with you guys yg pergi holiday ke merata rata tempat. Singapore lah, Pulau Pinang lah, Tioman lah, Kuantan lah, Terengganu lah, Hong Kong lah, London lah, Bandung lah segala bagai. And me stuck here in my lovely house everyday sitting in front of the computer/laptop onlin-ing 24/7. Ergh -.-' Bak kata Fatin Suraya "kita holiday kat rumah je. hotel tak payah sewa. minyak kereta tak payah isi. tak penat pun kan ?" har har har. When my mum said "mama busy bulan ni" which is mean this December. The last month yang aku fikir nak pergi bercuti berseronok bersuka-ria dengan family. But it's only just a dream. So this school holidays balik kampung je. Yang benda tu memang aku buat every month pun. And aku dah balik dari kampung pun weh -.-' hahahaha. What holiday huh ? Toodles ~

with love,
AQILAH ANUAR


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